08-06-2023

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Hasn't been myself lately.
No idea why but yeaa.

Morning shift on 07-06-2023 ended work no feel to check my phone at all.
Off day 08-06-2023 same. 
No feels to check my phone. 
Went out with An. Walked around IMM & Westgate.

While eating Lady M with An.
Sudden receive message from Mum. 
Photos of food that they ate without me.
Why? Trying to show off? 
I don't need to know what you guys ate.
Because you guys always eat good food without me being around with you guys.

I really don't know whats wrong with me.
Really.
Really.
Really.
What the fuck is wrong with me?

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